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symbioidlji just hooked up the mac to test it out.
i'ven't replied to most of your comments, but am thinking of you... been busy a lot lately.
took too long of a nap tonight, should've gone back to work, but didn't. sigh. gonna be another long day tomorrow, but that's something i can deal with. we had to go shopping tonight, and couldn't do both unless i took a nap. then just decided to not go back.
i like the mac, am just learning some things about it.
you know, it's easy to figure out, but part of that, is, i think, because i already know computers. i'd be curious to see someone who's not so familiar with computers and how the use it.
It IS damn beautiful. i'm digging the new monitor, but it is a bit large to put in my desk which has a hutch.
it's actually a lot faster than i expected, i must admit. then again, i'm only browsing the net so far, so i'm sure that when i actually put it through some harsher paces, it'll be a bit slower. i do have to get used to the mouse, but it probably won' be too bad, i can see how if i switch between mac and pc, i'll prolly overshoot, but oh well.
i can't believe this is only a 17 inch monitor.
This is the highest resolution i've ever run in, and it seems perfect for the monitor(I think i'm 1600x1200 right now)
anyways, this is pretty fucking cool.
one thing i just realized today. i have been low on cash, but when we visited brent, it looked like i had more money than i thought i did, so i bought a mogwai album, and a dillinger escape plan EP(feat. Mike Patton!!!!) That dillinger disc is fucking awesome! I really really really love it. It's so heavy and noisy, and just good music. it's like post-punk/metal. and they do a cover of "Come to Daddy" with live instrumentation. And it's great, because in part of the song, Patton is screaming, and he sounds a baby. Just to emote something like that in a song, and put a whole new interpretation. He sounds like shrieking demons in it at one point. Like some horde of banshees. Just pure amazing music.(if you like heavy shit, of course)
Anyways.
I'm at work today, thinking about using the mac for working on my web page, and then it hit me. I DO have less money than I thought I realized. I owe my hosting company.
shit.
I was feeling bad because i bought the CD's instead of paying brent, or (and this is the actually bad part, and it shows my self-centered side, which i really want to evolve and work on) I didn't get b-day presents for tony or rosemary. now, i am low on cash, that's not the point. the point is that at the time i thought i DID have money, instead of buying presents for others, I bought things for myself. i feel bad about that.
i kept apologizing to brent about not giving him any money, and he doesn't care, of course, as long as I do get him the money before december.
i think i have some sort of guilt complex. i'm always apologizing. it's fucking weird. i think a lot of you can attest to that. i'm sure it's quite annoying. something i can work to understand i suppose. then again, i think that's a good thing is that it's something i can look at myself and try to change, and accept parts of it. the good part is that it let's me be conscious of how i act towards others. it's a consciousness that is an exaggerated sense of respect... in some ways, at least.
how many people really sit down and notice these things about themselves and try to work on it? I know my friends are people that are likely to do such a thing, in some regards, either emotively, intellectually, or some other sense of understanding. but what about the majority of the population, how many of them strive towards that old maxim "Philosopher, know thyself"?
blah. anyways, my point is that i did something fairly selfish, and maybe some of my recent issues are about me being selfish. i do know i'm mildly depressed recently, but not sure in exactly what ways. but this is a good step, maybe. This weekend opened up some chakras or something. still have a lot of work to do, but hopefully i will have the energy to work through this in the coming months.
i will try to get in touch and reply to the comments.
it's fucking late...
later
i'ven't replied to most of your comments, but am thinking of you... been busy a lot lately.
took too long of a nap tonight, should've gone back to work, but didn't. sigh. gonna be another long day tomorrow, but that's something i can deal with. we had to go shopping tonight, and couldn't do both unless i took a nap. then just decided to not go back.
i like the mac, am just learning some things about it.
you know, it's easy to figure out, but part of that, is, i think, because i already know computers. i'd be curious to see someone who's not so familiar with computers and how the use it.
It IS damn beautiful. i'm digging the new monitor, but it is a bit large to put in my desk which has a hutch.
it's actually a lot faster than i expected, i must admit. then again, i'm only browsing the net so far, so i'm sure that when i actually put it through some harsher paces, it'll be a bit slower. i do have to get used to the mouse, but it probably won' be too bad, i can see how if i switch between mac and pc, i'll prolly overshoot, but oh well.
i can't believe this is only a 17 inch monitor.
This is the highest resolution i've ever run in, and it seems perfect for the monitor(I think i'm 1600x1200 right now)
anyways, this is pretty fucking cool.
one thing i just realized today. i have been low on cash, but when we visited brent, it looked like i had more money than i thought i did, so i bought a mogwai album, and a dillinger escape plan EP(feat. Mike Patton!!!!) That dillinger disc is fucking awesome! I really really really love it. It's so heavy and noisy, and just good music. it's like post-punk/metal. and they do a cover of "Come to Daddy" with live instrumentation. And it's great, because in part of the song, Patton is screaming, and he sounds a baby. Just to emote something like that in a song, and put a whole new interpretation. He sounds like shrieking demons in it at one point. Like some horde of banshees. Just pure amazing music.(if you like heavy shit, of course)
Anyways.
I'm at work today, thinking about using the mac for working on my web page, and then it hit me. I DO have less money than I thought I realized. I owe my hosting company.
shit.
I was feeling bad because i bought the CD's instead of paying brent, or (and this is the actually bad part, and it shows my self-centered side, which i really want to evolve and work on) I didn't get b-day presents for tony or rosemary. now, i am low on cash, that's not the point. the point is that at the time i thought i DID have money, instead of buying presents for others, I bought things for myself. i feel bad about that.
i kept apologizing to brent about not giving him any money, and he doesn't care, of course, as long as I do get him the money before december.
i think i have some sort of guilt complex. i'm always apologizing. it's fucking weird. i think a lot of you can attest to that. i'm sure it's quite annoying. something i can work to understand i suppose. then again, i think that's a good thing is that it's something i can look at myself and try to change, and accept parts of it. the good part is that it let's me be conscious of how i act towards others. it's a consciousness that is an exaggerated sense of respect... in some ways, at least.
how many people really sit down and notice these things about themselves and try to work on it? I know my friends are people that are likely to do such a thing, in some regards, either emotively, intellectually, or some other sense of understanding. but what about the majority of the population, how many of them strive towards that old maxim "Philosopher, know thyself"?
blah. anyways, my point is that i did something fairly selfish, and maybe some of my recent issues are about me being selfish. i do know i'm mildly depressed recently, but not sure in exactly what ways. but this is a good step, maybe. This weekend opened up some chakras or something. still have a lot of work to do, but hopefully i will have the energy to work through this in the coming months.
i will try to get in touch and reply to the comments.
it's fucking late...
later
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Date: 2004-08-03 05:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-03 04:40 pm (UTC)the real problem i'm having isn't the second mouse button, but the middle-clicking a link in Firefox to open the tabs.
oh, and also, i'm still not too keen on the speed of the mouse, but maybe i'll look and see if there's some sort of mouse accelerator available(i have it cranked up in the preferences as it is)
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Date: 2004-08-03 07:30 am (UTC)I think a lot of people understand they have issues, some just express them differently. You may write about them here, Annette talks about them to me, and some internalize them. In the end it doesn't really matter if you tell people that you know you have problems, it's what you do about them that counts. Do nothing and you're no better than the person who internalizes everything and pretends outwardly that they have no problems.
It was great seeing you. Have fun w/ the Mac.