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symbioidljright now.
so this may not be as coherent as I would like it to be.
tony and i jammed tonight, and i'm listening to the DAT now and it sounds pretty good. our older stuff hasn't been as impressive, but i think now that we have many many hours recorded(i have 10 DAT tapes in my possession right now, and Tony has many more, I believe), we're slowly learning our machines, or are the machines learning us?
strangely, tonight, i had an auditory hallucination. it was a snare drum doing a little 3 beat rhythm, and it did this twice(six beats total) It was clearly to my left front. my speakers were most definitely not playing any music, and there should be no other source of music, but I heard it distinctly outside my head.
it kinda freaked me out a bit. I can sometimes work with imagining sound in my head and tweaking it, but to actually hear it as if it were "out there" was something totally new.
Rosemary said "You're having a flashback." I'm afraid I'm going schizophrenic.
Tony reminded me, however, that I've had strange halluciations before.
When I was a kid, I heard a dark voice in another language speaking in my room, and the lights kept flickering on and off. my mother ran up to my room and said "Satan! In the name of Jesus, be gone!" (I must have been screaming, I think because I was so freaked) It stopped. The flickering and the voice.
Another time, and this could just be a technical tv malfunction. I was watching tv sunday morning while my mom was getting ready for church and that short stubby preacher from the 80s who sorta looked like a cross between Jerve Villachez and Jim Baker(yes, *that* Jim Baker), and he slammed peoples forehead and said "You are healed!"(we called that slaying in the spirit when I was growing up)
Anyways, the TV screen went black, and that same voice in a foreign language emanated from the screen. I ran and pounded on the bathroom door, when my mom came back, she said the same thing( in the name of jesus... satan be gone ) and it stopped again. I don't know how far apart these incidents were, but it was freaky.
I have conjectured that these may have been ultra-dimensional beings protruding through space time and manifesting as sound and electrical effects(the light and the tv both being electrical powered)... like gremlins, or impish, shall we say...
SELF-TRANSFORMING MACHINE ELVES????????????????????
I dunno, maybe it was. maybe there was some strange duress I was under, and it came out during that stresseful time. stress induced hallucinations??? I dunno, what could have caused it, but certainly I experienced it. I don't think it was "satan" or any such thing, but I'm not sure exactly what it was.
Tonight, I think it was some strange hallucination that just happened, either as Rosemary said: a flashback, or as I fear: schizophrenia setting in. somehow I think Rosemary's explanation is more likely... even though I don't think that even is it.
Maybe it IS the symbioid ohrwurm trying to contact me and infect my mind.
Should I go for it? Should I accept that sound producing virus inside my brain, that that earworm into my head and feed me tunes from the cosmosphere?
so this may not be as coherent as I would like it to be.
tony and i jammed tonight, and i'm listening to the DAT now and it sounds pretty good. our older stuff hasn't been as impressive, but i think now that we have many many hours recorded(i have 10 DAT tapes in my possession right now, and Tony has many more, I believe), we're slowly learning our machines, or are the machines learning us?
strangely, tonight, i had an auditory hallucination. it was a snare drum doing a little 3 beat rhythm, and it did this twice(six beats total) It was clearly to my left front. my speakers were most definitely not playing any music, and there should be no other source of music, but I heard it distinctly outside my head.
it kinda freaked me out a bit. I can sometimes work with imagining sound in my head and tweaking it, but to actually hear it as if it were "out there" was something totally new.
Rosemary said "You're having a flashback." I'm afraid I'm going schizophrenic.
Tony reminded me, however, that I've had strange halluciations before.
When I was a kid, I heard a dark voice in another language speaking in my room, and the lights kept flickering on and off. my mother ran up to my room and said "Satan! In the name of Jesus, be gone!" (I must have been screaming, I think because I was so freaked) It stopped. The flickering and the voice.
Another time, and this could just be a technical tv malfunction. I was watching tv sunday morning while my mom was getting ready for church and that short stubby preacher from the 80s who sorta looked like a cross between Jerve Villachez and Jim Baker(yes, *that* Jim Baker), and he slammed peoples forehead and said "You are healed!"(we called that slaying in the spirit when I was growing up)
Anyways, the TV screen went black, and that same voice in a foreign language emanated from the screen. I ran and pounded on the bathroom door, when my mom came back, she said the same thing( in the name of jesus... satan be gone ) and it stopped again. I don't know how far apart these incidents were, but it was freaky.
I have conjectured that these may have been ultra-dimensional beings protruding through space time and manifesting as sound and electrical effects(the light and the tv both being electrical powered)... like gremlins, or impish, shall we say...
SELF-TRANSFORMING MACHINE ELVES????????????????????
I dunno, maybe it was. maybe there was some strange duress I was under, and it came out during that stresseful time. stress induced hallucinations??? I dunno, what could have caused it, but certainly I experienced it. I don't think it was "satan" or any such thing, but I'm not sure exactly what it was.
Tonight, I think it was some strange hallucination that just happened, either as Rosemary said: a flashback, or as I fear: schizophrenia setting in. somehow I think Rosemary's explanation is more likely... even though I don't think that even is it.
Maybe it IS the symbioid ohrwurm trying to contact me and infect my mind.
Should I go for it? Should I accept that sound producing virus inside my brain, that that earworm into my head and feed me tunes from the cosmosphere?
